Strange+obsession

Day 1

Then i reached my house, opening the door knob and as i went in, i heard the sound of frying and cooking tools fighting each other. That must be my mom cooking at the kitchen. I went upstairs to my room and jump to my bed having my face directing to the window. //Sigh.// I had a nap before having dinner. I felt someone was poking on me and its getting irritating, i narrowed my eyes and found out that it was only my mother. "Wake up honey, its time for dinner." said mom. "All right, will be right down in a moment." I stretched and face my face and went down. At the table my mom is serving macaroni and cheese. Yum! My favorite! As i finish eating up everything on my plate, i put away my plate at the sink. I went up and head to bed for a good night sleep.
 * Crunch crunch* I was munching some snacks on the way home from school. The sky still has the color blue on it with the white clouds and birds flying.

Day 2

Its Saturday morning, The sun is shining through my window and i really want to continue sleeping, but i couldn't instead i went to the bathroom and began to brush my teeth. The toothpaste tasted funny, it seems to be more tasty than before, I wonder why. Now its all over my mouth. i twist and turn the tap and washed my mouth and closed it again. I went down to have breakfast, i grab a bowl, milk and the cereal box. i poured milk in my cereal and watch tv while eating it. After a few minutes, i began feeling not wanting to continue my cereal. I got up and put my left overs in the fridge. I took a glass and poured water in it. //Has my taste buds messed up? ugh//. Thinking about it makes me upset. So i went back to the couch and continued watching tv.

4:35pm

I haven't ate since the cereal this morning. Mom isn't home yet and so as dad. Nothing is on the fridge either! I spend all of my money! Nothing is left! Maybe i should just sleep to ignore my hunger away. I tried. I lay down on my bed and couldn't sleep at all. Then i bite on my blanket. At least doing this could hold on my hunger. I began biting and almost eating it, until i was aware of what i'm doing i quickly ran down and reached for water. I quickly drink and drink until i should catch my breath. *gasp* //What was i doing?! It isn't normal at all! What if something will be wrong with my body?// I shake my head and drink more water.

8:00 pm

Finally, i finish my dinner. i drink water again. i went to bed and happily lay down. Unconsciously i grab my blanket and bite on it again, this time sucking it until i fell asleep.

Day 3

Again, i woke up. This time the blanket in my mouth. I don't know why but whenever i insert the blanket in my mouth i feel comfortable, like everything is nothing anymore. So i took the blanket to the bathroom with me, i hold onto it while brushing my teeth. Then i went back to my room and cut a little piece of it, because i can't take the blanket with me everywhere, its just too big. After having a piece of my blanket i went back to the bathroom and take a shower. I feel like i have to hold onto it no matter what, whatever i do, wherever i go, i //must// have a piece of my blanket. After finishing my shower, i put on clothes while the piece of blanket was in my mouth. Today i told my friends that i would hang out with them. I went out of my house and locked the door. I used my bike and paddle all the way till i reach the mall. My friends have already been waiting. i parked my bike and went in the mall.

"Hey!" i shouted to them. "Finally you showed up i thought-" she suddenly paused. "Is that a fabric in your mouth?" i quickly take it out of my mouth and put inside my bag. //oh my...// "Nope it wasn't! it was just a candy wrapper that i forgot to throw it away! haha!" i said. "Oh okay, where should we go first?" she asked. //Thank God, i thought she would discovered it...// "Lets go to the clothing store!" another girl said. "Sure" everyone answered. We headed to the clothing shop and browse for some new clothes. While they were busy with their own thing, i grab my piece of blanket and insert it in my mouth again. This time none of them could notice it. When they finished their things, time has already passed by, and its time for us to go home. //I haven't told anyone yet about my habits..// I said goodbye and went off to my bike. i stepped on the paddle and started to ride back home. //Am i weird? strange?// i feel abnormal because of my habits. Having a piece of my blanket placed in my mouth as if it was a candy is not right. I know this is wrong, but i couldn't help to get rid of it. //Why? i feel insecure. Now i'm talking to myself....this is just great.// I reached home, unlock the door and went it. After closing the door, i turned on the lights and went upstairs. I didn't feel like eating since i have my blanket with me. I went to bed and think about a lot of things, scenes are building up in my mind. i'm getting worried and really feeling insecure. I forced myself to sleep, for no reason tears starting to run down to my cheeks. I hugged my blanket tight and closed my eyes.

Day 4

My mom told me that i look skinnier, but i feel the same. "Are you alright dear?" asked my mom. "Yeah, so fine. thanks mom" I answered. //Should i tell my mom? or should i just avoid it?// //Maybe i should...i got nothing to lose! "// "Mom, can i tell you something?", "Sure, anything." my mom said calmly. "Um, i like to taste my blanket...." I quickly closed my eyes hard when i said it. I was scared of the response. There is a silence, i have to brace myself. She broke the silence, "Well, its very disturbing to hear that...what else can we do about it? Do you want to go to a therapist?" "Uh...Up to you.." i said without thinking. "Up to me?! You dare to say that?! Its your life, you should be responsible for it! i am not going to sweep up all of your mess! Then fine! Don't have to go to the therapist! I'm really ashamed of you!!" shouted my mother. From the way she said __ 'Well. its very disturbing to hear that '__ i knew she was very disappointed and sad. I am not a good daughter that everyone expect me to be, i made her sad a lot of times. I felt so sinful. Maybe this is just my fate.. i went to my room and cried till my pillow is soaked. //I-i re-regret. What can i do now?//

Day 5

Maybe i am going to end up like this forever, with my strange habit. Its uncontrollable, i can never let go of it.I have to face the fact that i'm obsessed with my own blanket. My strange obssesion.